No huddle offense

it's pretty much a new beginning for me... nothing's going right and thats fine because i'm not the worrying type but i do feel like everything's out of order. i asked god a question a long time ago and i think i got my answer today. i asked what was it that i was supposed to be doing here on earth and i've interpreted the answer as to being come to me and i'll show you. the thing is i'm having the hardest time taking the first step. i'm not scared or anything like that but somethings holding me back. i guess i've always wanted to do things on my own but he has other plans and believe me when i tell you that my life has come to a screeching halt... maybe he was trying to get my attention earlier and i wasn't paying attention but i am now... i've literally let a lot of things go for now. anything that i wanted i have no desire for it, none! it's crazy because i told lb i'm done with women and he asked where did it all come from and i kinda gave him a slighted answer but he should read this in a morning (sup homie). it's time to listen to my father, do his will, and be happy to do it because i know that i won't have anything i desire until i do. and on top of that now that i look back i'm gonna tell yall a few things.

i've always...

1. been bright
2. been able to remember faces
3. been a natural leader
4. had a way with words
5. been able to brighten up a room
6. been looked up to by friends
7. been sought for advice
8. been able to speak and write really well

the more i thought about it the more i began to realize that god didn't give me these tools to be idol and do nothing with. and he didn't train me so well so that i could work the other team either... i guess it's an opening on the starting roster and he won't take no for an answer... i think when i die i wanna be able to say that i have absolutely no talent left and i've used my skills all up and passed my knowledge on to the next generation... i think that would be very pleasing to him from which all life flows...( and i'll try to remain as much of the doug yall love as he allows me to be)